Thanks

Thanks to all of you who lent an ear to me yesterday.  I’m feeling a lot better today.  I think I’m hormonal and maybe stuck in an emotional rut.  I hate being so cryptic but it was a situation that felt trivial and I felt dumb getting into specifics.  Trivial on the grand scheme of things, but on a personal level it just made me feel kind of crummy. Long story short, I put myself out there socially and kind of got snubbed.  I was mad at myself because I knew that was going to be a possibility but I ignored my gut.  It wasn’t the lack of acceptance that pissed me off, it was the feeling of somebody acting like they were doing me a favor by acknowledging me.  Even worse, I though this person was a turd in general, so that got me even more upset.  If I admired someone and they blew me off I wouldn’t feel like such a double whammy.  If THAT makes any sense?

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2 thoughts on “Thanks

  1. “It wasn’t the lack of acceptance that pissed me off, it was the feeling of somebody acting like they were doing me a favor by acknowledging me.” I’ve been there! Sorry about this and glad you’re feeling better 🙂

  2. Yeah, it kinda does make sense. But it’s not dumb that you felt that way, even though the person in question wasn’t someone you cared much about. Because despite everything, you expect the best of people, not the worst. 😉 That might leave you open for pain sometimes, but it also primes you for joy and wonder! So don’t beat yourself up too much.

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